2017

Clinging to the last Minutes
Of 2016
I don't want to let Go
What Happens
To All those Moments
That Shaped You and Me
Are they all Lost
At Midnight

Lost in Love

Psychedelic 

Thoughts 

Of You

Expand my Consciousness 

I float  

In Love

Higher and Higher

Look Down

Everything 

At a snail's pace

A slow motion Movie

Time Crawling

In front of me

I see You

But 

Can't  Touch You

Imploding

Breaking Inside
You have  been Imploding
The Weight You Carry
Shift Some To Me
I Promise I will not Break
All Your Fragile Thoughts
And
Even Though I seem
Insensitive
And Selfish
It is just a Facade
I am as Insecure
As Everybody else around You

I Often Wonder

I Often Wonder
What Tells the Leaves to Turn Red
Squirrels to Store Pine Cones
Birds to Fly South
The Air to Grow Crisp
Sky to Become Grey
Night To Spread its Long Wings
Moon to Rise
Over Frozen Fields
Your Eyes to Fill with Warmth
And For me To Long for Vigor

Putting it Together

I did come Undone
Again
Even Though I tried not to
Time to Pick up the Glue
And put it all together
Missing
Pieces
I will replace
With Your Memories

Colors of Fall

Summer Slips Into Fall
Leaves
In Shades of Red
Blow around in the Winds
The Inevitable is Here
Love
Like A Dwindling Fire
Trying to Rage
Will Die Down
Giving Way to
The Ravages of Time
From My Bedroom Window
I look out
Silently
Take a Deep Breath
My Heart
Ice Cold.

Desires

I Yearn for the Sun
On Grey Rainy Days
Close my Eyes
Feel the Rays
Warming The  Skin
Those Carefree Days
You and Me Out There
Visions of Love.
Desires and Longings
Keep Me Going

Instead

I  have Decided Not to Wait
For that Bright Sunny Day
To Come Along
When All would be Fine and Dandy
Like the Crystal Clear Waters
Of a River
Flowing into the Ocean
Instead
I Uprooted Myself
Stretching
Onto the Sky
I Float Like a Cloud
The Wind
Blows Me Around
Tossing Me Upside Down
Storms and Lightening
Blue Sky
Moonless Nights
I'm Good with Everything.

Like Sisyphus

Come Daybreak
Like Sisyphus
I roll the Rock
Up the Hill
It Rolls Back Down
Crushing Everything in Its Way
No Trace of My Hard Labor Left Behind
Addicted to Failure
I Plot a New Path
I Must Not Give Up
I Never Give Up
I am Not Condemned
My Joy Is in The Journey

Contemplation

I Sit under a Tree
In Contemplation
The Wind
And My Breath
Are in Harmony
I Become
The Tree
My Arms and Legs
The Branches
Spine the Trunk
My Soul is the Leaves
Swinging with the Breeze
The Sky
And the Earth are
Tied together

Ready To Fly

A Cool Breeze
Finally Starts to Blow
The Hot Day
Fading
Into a Pleasant Night
Sound of Crickets
Echoes Everywhere
Reaches Deep Into My Heart
And Strikes a Chord
Free Like a Bird
I have Wings Tonight
Ready to Start on My Journey
I will Fly across the Darkness

Timelessness

Sitting by the Edge of The Lake
I Sense
The Tranquility
Sun Going Down
In Hues of Orange and Red
Water  Silent
Seagulls
Quiet.
In That Moment
The Sky
The Horizon
The Colors
The Sand
And Me
We are All One
No Beginning
No Ending

Cosmic Dance

I wait for The Moment
For the Sky to Explode
The Moon to Burst Open
The Sun to Consume Itself
I want to Burn
With All That Energy
I Feel the Pull
Of  Black Holes
Beyond The Earth
Dark Matter
Whispering
The Song
Of Life and Death
Mixed into One
The Sound Of the Big Bang

Layers

My Thoughts
Stripped of Everything
Are Naked and Pure
Much Like the Sky
Sans the Sun
And Clouds
I lay them out
So Nothing is Shrouded
From You
While You Dig Deep
And Cover Yourself
In Layers

Out in the Dark

The Silence of the Night
Is Punctuated by Fireflies
Glowing in the Darkness
I want to reach Out
And Grab One
Feel the Heat
In the Palm of My Hand
Something to Warm me Up
While I wait it Out
Out in the Cool Night

Living with You

Moonlight
Wounds Me
Every Time
Much Like it Did
Our First Night Out.
Sunshine and Flowers
I Am in a Trance
It is The Price I Pay
For Living Life So Intensely
For Living Life with You.

The Night Sky

The Sun Has Set
Below the Horizon
There's a Chill in the Air
And I am looking for Warmth
That has Disappeared with the Sun
A Clear Night
Soon The Sliver of a Moon
Will be Hung up There
Sometimes I Wish
I could Reach Into the Sky
And Arrange Everything
The Way it will Look Pretty
As Pretty as You
Shining In Love.

Love in Your Eyes

I am not sure
If it was the Fading Light
Or the Peeking Stars in the Sky
But Your Eyes Glowed
Glowed with Love
And that is All I Remember
And Want to Remember
Everything Else
Is a Blur.

Thinking of You

I sat outside
In the Drizzle
Under a Canopy Barely
With Rain Drops
Hitting my Arms
It was a  quiet Evening
The Kind where
There's no wind
And Yet
The Atmosphere feels so Heavy
Laden with Thoughts
Thoughts of Me
And You

Edge of the Lake

Clouds Hung Around the Mountain
Like A Scarf Around Your Neck
Ruffled and Soft
The Evening Star
Bright in the Twilight
Shimmered Like Your Eyes
I Sat at the Edge of the Lake
Drunk With Love
Sure that You Will Appear
Walk on the Water to Me
Be My Messiah

All I Need

Darkness Creeps over
Like a Blanket
Covering everything in its path
The Sun has set
Trees disappear
Into varying shapes
The soft rustle of Wind
A quiet Horizon
I take your Hand
And walk into Oblivion
You are all I Want and Need
Nothing Less
And Nothing More

Why I Need You

This is What I am Made Of
A Mixture of Life and Death
The More I Live
The Less I am left With
And the Less I Live
The More I am Left With
The Trick Is
To Find the Way Out
Or the Way In
And That Is Why I Need You
To Show Me the Way

Like a Mighty River

Like a mighty River
Yearning for the Ocean
Life Curves Around
An Unknown Path.
Memories
Inside my Head
Are
Little Islands
I take shelter in
Storms Pass
Leading to Lazy Days
With Sunshine.
It All
Ebbs and Flows
Ends Somewhere
In the Distant Future
Drawing its Course
From the Misty Past

Planting a Rose

Digging up Dirt
in the Backyard
I am Planting a Rose
In a Flower Bed
Giving it a New Home
An Act so Simple
Is Very Complex
The Smell of Earth
Travels Through Me
I stop Thinking.
Meditation
That's what It Is
Concentrate on One Thing
Concentrate on Nothing
Cover the Roots
Fill the Little Crater
Steady the Stem
And Water It.

Waiting for Summer

A Spider Winds its way Up
The Trunk of A Bare Tree
Soon there will be Green Leaves
Covering it All
Hiding Secrets.
I Kinda Like the Lean Looks
The Stark Masculine Defiance
Standing Jagged
In Warm Sunlight
No Swaying in the Wind
Dry and Barren
A Mob of Branches
And Yet Each Alone.

Eternal Night

Between the Noise of the Cars
And the Silence
Of the Windless Night
Hang my Dreams.
Soon I will be in Deep Sleep
And My Subconscious will Wake
It has a Mind of it Own
A Parallel Existence
I Often Try
To Transcend the Barrier
To go Deep in My Conscious
To Find the Bottom
Open the Door
And Meet the Inmost
Some Eternal Night
I Will.

This Feeling

I am not sure
If it was a Dream
Or for Real
All I have is This Feeling Left
Like an After Taste
Or the Lingering Smell of Perfume
Your Perfume
One Thing is Certain
It is Gone
Lost in the Consciousness

Eternal Moments

The Sun and the Moon

Two Pillars of Time

Between which Hang

Day and Night

I am

Waiting to Catch

That Eternal Moment

Through the Passage.

Somethings are Forever

In Our Hearts

And in Our Heads

Memories

They Live in Us

And Die with Us.

Love Song

The Bright Blue You Wear
Blends with the Sky
Your Eyes
Radiant
Reflect
Sunshine.
This World
Full of Hatred
Still Falls in Love
And Waits with Baited Breath
For You to Smile

Longing

And So It Turns
The Wheel of Time
Dead Skin Peels off
Revealing Fresh Layers
Winter flows Into Spring
Shrinking Snow Piles
Lose Ground to Grass
Once Again
I
Await a new Beginning
Long for Warmth
Flowers
Birds Chirping
Butterflies
With Wings Flapping

Time is a Noun

Motion
Caught between Two Poles
Is What we Measure as Time.
I stand with my Watch
Counting every Second
Watching the Birds
Feeling the Wind
Hearing the Rustle of Leaves
And
What about Things
That are Timeless
Like
You and Me
Your Smile
Love
Is Their a Measure
To Measure These?

Inner Struggles

The I in Me
Is Lost Nowadays
Confused
Whether to Give up
Or to Seek
To Act or
Be Inactive
And as the Night Wears On
The Struggle
To Keep the Identity
Or Let it go
Is Nowhere close
To Conclusion

Wants and Needs

I Have always Wanted
To Be with You
But as Life Changes
And Wants Become Needs
I realize that I Need You
Now
More Than Ever Before
Standing by My Side

Now or Never

Some Days
I Really Stand Alone
Words Crash around Me
Like Glass on Stone
Shattering
Into Hundreds of Pieces
Sharp and Jagged
Painful
The Healing Touch
Is What I Need
Its Now or Never

All of This

Every time I try to Unwind
Let my Guard Down
It comes and Hits Me.
I am Beginning to Realize
That Even Though
I think All of This is
About You and Me
It is More about Me
My Fears
My Loneliness
Of Being Loved
And Unloved
Life and Death
Smashed
Into One.

Deep Inside

And So It Goes
Up and Down
In And Out.
I Cannot Help
But Notice
The Transience of Flowers
The Coldness of Winter
Fleeting Sunshine
And The Permanence of Darkness
Deep Down Inside

The Sweetness in Your Eyes

Winter Solstice
Is Over
The Longest Night of the Year
Gave Way to Dawn
The Sun
Has Won the Battle.
Light over Darkness
And in that Light
I see the Sweetness
In Your Eyes
Love's Cosmic Energy
Permeates Everything
My Heart
My Soul
My Whole Being.